It has come to this

It has come to this.
You leave me all alone
And this feeling consumes me.
It’s not hate. It’s not fear. It’s not envy.
It’s love. Because I can’t forget that smile.
The smile that is always on your face. Or at least… it was always there.
Why does it have to end like this?
If you still love me… why did it end?
Your smile was broke… you gave up on love.
And you forgot about me. About everyone.
And I fell into the misery of the broken smile of yours.
I shouted silent words. Sad words. I shouted my heart out. I wanted you to hear me.
So please, will you pay attention for a second. And waste your time looking in my eyes.
Tell me what you see. Tell me what you want to see. But don’t say it loud… tell me in your dreams. Tell me your dream.
Was it about me?
It will never end. You promised.
I want to see that smile of yours. Again. Like before. When you were with me.
That beautiful smile of yours.
So… I lost you.
In the maze of your mind… In all the colours of your eyes.
And I came upon a cross… the one on the left is calmer… but the other one, in the right, has no rail-cut… Which one should I take? I know that… if I take the one on the left… I’ll get there, for sure. But… why should I take that one when I have the other? Life is full of choices. You’ll have to face them sometimes.
And then I turn right,… waiting that I’ll be able to win.
But… that’s not true. And I’m aware of it. Because there’s another person… the person you’ve been hiding. The side you don’t want to show.
But… and if I tell you I want to see that side. That other face. Will you show it? No one else is watching us…
And while we talk you touch me. Touch my arms, my chest, my hair… my throat. And you pull it from me. And you throw it away. So I can no longer talk. Can no longer breath… because you quitted this… you quitted the game. This game that everyone calls… “Love”.